There are some situations in life that people use "There are no words," to describe how awful it is. Instead they say, "I'm sorry," over and over again. And they really are. Its a genuine feeling of sorry. And yet you only say it when you haven't lived it. When you live something like this it changes from I'm sorry, to "I know."
I'm sorry is sympathy. I know is empathy.
- "It’s not that sympathy is bad, not at all. It’s just that empathy invites a connection sympathy simply can’t. Sympathy says, “I feel sorry for you,” while empathy declares, “I am you.” Sympathy requires you to find compassion, from a distance, for another’s misfortune. Empathy demands that you revisit your own pain in order to relate to someone else’s." - I love this description of the difference between the two. You can read the full article here.
When people say that I have a way with words right now, its because I have so many flowing through my mind. I would rather try to express them in hopes that someone out there that has been told "there is no words," finds mine. Finds that they are not alone. That there is definitely a lot of words that can be strung together to describe grief. And although there is no grief that is ever the same, its the most unique experience in life. There are people who are feeling the same feelings. And sometimes just being told, "I know," is enough.
There is one video on youtube that I share more than any other. A good friend showed it to me the first time I saw her after Kimmy's accident. {I never know what to actually call this event in my life, nothing sums it up quite what it is. Accident that wasn't accidental, loss even though she is still living. Its so complicated. And right now it also compounds my grief.} I find so much comfort in Brene Browns words and voice. I watched this video that was able to voice what I wanted to tell everyone around me. I love advocating the difference of sympathy and empathy, because it makes a difference to people that are deep in the experience that needs empathy.
She says "Rarely can a response ever make something better, what makes something better is connection." Nothing is truer than this statement. Here is the full video that I beg you to watch. Its 2 minutes and 34 seconds that felt life changing to me the first time I watched it.
While writing today, I opened fb and saw a message from a friend that I have never met in person. But we have been through some shit together. We met over the internet because she had a little boy and had just gotten the craniosynostosis diagnosis. And I was the person in her life that could say, I know.
The messages between us started on deep empathy. And we have followed each others lives through happiness and further heartbreak. Because life is never all one direction. It's full of ups and downs, and it seems the best people I know, know those really dark deep downs. We are each others supporters, because we remember when we were the ones needing that same support. There are many of my friends who fall into this category. And there will be so many that years from now message me and say, I'm sorry, I know.
And I will be there to walk them through that passage, like people are doing with me now.
I know.
with love, lissa