I hope you are blessed with a heart like a wildflower 🌿
strong enough to rise again, after being trampled on.
Tough enough to weather the worst summer storms.
And able to grow and flourish,
even in the most broken places 🌿
I had booked a mother daughter photo shoot with @mywildbeautifulheart this summer. We had dreamed up a beautiful girly set, sunset & floral crowns. I had shared this dream of a daughter with her over the years. She has 2 and understand the relationship is different, special. I love my boys but there is an indescribable feeling between a mother and a daughter. And I had always wanted to share that, I started to share that with Anna, it was already there.
I daydreamed about the session in my head all the time. It was the last thing I pictured before everything happened that morning. I was standing in the shower dreaming of it, I really began to worry about her lack of movement. She always danced away in the shower. Its why I spent so much time in the bath and shower during the pregnancy. I loved feeling her move. But she was still.
I still picture her with me in that moment. I go to a place in my mind where the garden is full of greenary, the birds melodies are playing softly, the sunlight dancing between the leaves swaying in the breeze. Sometimes I picture her as the plump baby in my arms. The 6 month old as we lay on a blanket looking at the clouds. Sometimes she's the little girl I always imagined, flowers wound into braids, we look the same, I spin her with one arm, we laugh together like a dream. Because it is just a dream.
Amy gave blood this morning for the first time this morning, part of my #GiveLoveForAnna and sent me this quote, and a photo of a shoot we did together 2 years ago. This summer I imagined Anna in my arms, but I will stand alone. Some days I won’t be able to stand at all. But one day, that wild flower heart will bloom again.
with love, lissa